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“Kay, my name is Morgan I'm 26. I am technically Long Beach California and no I don't live there right now. It's not really that cold where I am it's 648 I'm wearing a gray white sweater and not much else. The last thing I listen to was glee(?) I think ___ Santa Close me nothing I ate with ___ banana. Right now on TV on my DVD player is Toy Story. My favorite TV show ___ Cos it's funny I'm not gonna do a book. The last movie I saw no hell as I know and I don't think I have an accent I can have an accent when you go to visit my relatives on he south”

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My heart hurts


My eyes are burning, trying to hold back tears. I love my husband more than I can explain, he is an amazing man who loves me and puts up with me. So why does he make me feel this way?? Like I am wrong, the way I feel is wrong. He wants me to talk to him if something is bothering me, but when I do he starts with the " Well then leave me" stuff. Its frustrating, even having a conversation about something turns into an argument, and just when I think it's over, he says something to start it back up again.


Today it was soccer, my stepson has played soccer for the past 2 years or so, and my husband has gotten into it, watching it, playing it, playing it on the playstation 3, and thats great, but it can be a bit much, I feel at times he would rather be doing something soccer related then be with me or do something I want to do. So he is going on about how he wants to start are 4 year old in soccer, and he looks at me and says "You hate soccer don't you?" I say I don't hate it is just becomes a bit much, I have to share my husband with work, kids his friends and now soccer, and maybe if it wasent all the time I would be more into it. So he starts in about how we have nothing in common, and all of this, and I told him I just wish he was half as passionate about me as he is with soccer. I left it at that, I mean there was more but it wasent really an argument as so much as a disscusion at least for me. We take the boys to the park, and I thought everything was over until we got home and he comes downstairs after getting ready for work and says I should find someone who dosent like soccer. I am shocked, I go to hug him and talk to him and he gets annoyed at me, so I go back to my dishes, trying not to cry ( he hates it when I cry) as he is going to leave I try to say goodbye to him and that I am sorry for not being better for him, and starts again about how I hate soccer, and I don't,I hate that he would rather play soccer than be with me, so I tell him it's not the soccer part it's his obssesion with it, that he would rather being doing something soccer related than be with me. He says that's not true so I bring up Valentines day. See on Valentines day he didn't even get me a card, I mean all I got him was a card, so I wasent expecting much but a card would have been nice, I mean he stops by the gas station everyday and never once thought "Oh maybe I should pick up a card". He told me he was sorry and that the day just snuck up on him, and I say it's ok, and it was. I mean I was a little hurt that he didn't bother to even think about me but whatever we had a good day anyway ( he did just about the same thing last year and promised the next year would be better), but now he is planning this big soccer match with some guys at work so for the past week I have had to listen to him go on about goals, a field, a date and stuff. I can't help but remember how he didn't plan anything for me for Valentines day and get bitter. Anyway I bring up Valentines day as an example of him being more into soccer than me, and he goes off about how I am throwing it in his face, when all I said was "for example" I didn't say anyhting bad or that I was upset or anything. So I bring that to his attention, by this time I am crying and we are fighting, as he is walking out the door, and he walks away from me leaving me crying when I didn't even start the damn argument in the first place. I know he was going to work but really? does this seem fair??? I will admit when I am wrong or when I was being a bitch or whatever but I don't think I was this time. Now I am trying to calm down and not cry in front of the boys, and get over it. I know this will all blow over, but it still sucks. I know I will be the one to say I am sorry first, just to avoid more drama, and nothing will change he will go back to playing soccer and it's like it never happened.

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Rambling


I need a hair cut, drinking water, I hate pants, Wonder Pets playing in the backround. This is my Friday night, I should be doing laundry, but I am not. I read about Farrah Fawcett and almost cried, hits to close to home. Hasent even been a year since my Grandma passed away of the same thing. Wondering if I want more kids, am I really done at 25, should I get my tubes tied? I need a shower.

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SAD


there is nothing sadder than eating ice cream alone, it's ok when you are eating it with friends and gossiping but by yourself, on a sunday night in front of your computer screen is just sad. And yes I am eating ice cream cause it's still the weekend and I get to cheat on my diet on the weekends. On another note, why do I want so much stuff, I have become obsessed with accessories, and I need them all. That's all for today.

Drink more water, do more sit ups


Dieting sucks that is all.

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Writer's Block: Cookies


LJ::User=HASH(0x2af476da85e0)
What is the strangest advice you've ever received from a fortune cookie?
One 2 seperate occasions I got the same fortune cookie. The first time I was with my girlfriend and we just finished taking the A.C.T and stopped to eat, I opened my cookie and it said "You are still hungry have another fortune cookie" so my friend took it to the guy working the counter and he gave us another one, this by the way happened in Mininesota where I grew up. The second time was a few years later, after I moved to California, The same girlfriend was visiting me and we were out to dinner with my grandma at buffet, and I had just got done telling the story of the first time I got the fourtune, and I opened my cookie, my mouth dropped, "you are still hungry have another fortune cookie" how weird is that???!!!!!

Writer's Block: Words to Live By


What is your personal motto or favorite quotation?
“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.” Audrey Hepburn

Writer's Block: Desert Island Time


You're packing your bag for that magical desert island that happens to have electricity, a TV, and a DVD player—what five DVDs do you take with you?
My home movies, all one one disc, Breakfast at Tiffanys, My Fair Lady, Eurotrip, Get over it.